My daily ramblings....

Just wanted to make sure you all knew.... if you wanna find me again, I'm

star_shine17

K?

Ok.

So I made a new livejournal...

star_shine17

I just dont' like my name on this one, and I have a bunch of friends on here who never update.. so I'm starting on a new, clean, slate.

I'll be checking this one now and then, but add me on the other one, please!!!

this kid sitting next to me is annoying the SHIT out of me and I might knock him out.

Grr.

I'm so sick of people being dumb and immature and lying and ... just being stupid!!!

People need ot seriously grow up.

My God, high school is retarded.

I just took a quiz on the internet, I'm 62% friendly, 60% orderly, 46% emotionally stable (ha ha, ain't that the truth!), and 30% open minded.


Ha ha, oh man.

I love these phony tests.. even though they can be true!

I've officially decided this is our song. :) 

The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah

I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide

I'm quiet you know
You make a frist impression
I've found I'm scared to know I'm always on your mind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to ryhme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find
You and I collide

You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide

Megan House.

Holy crap. I don't know what her problem is, but she's a bitch to people she doesn't even know. It pisses me off.

in other news, Katie and I went out for lunch today. We met up at the Begelry and sat and talked for a while. It was nice to kinda semi- catch up. I miss hanging out with her! So yeah, it was good. Made my day happy.

And now I have to go back to ceramics... with Ben and Megan... Ugh.

Later

My icon makes me very happy. :)

And so does this song...

Kiss me out of the bearded barley.
Nightly, beside the green, green grass.
Swing, swing, swing the spinning step.
You wear those shoes
and I will wear that dress.

Oh, kiss me beneath the milky twilight.
Lead me out on the moonlit floor.
Lift your open hand.
Strike up the band
and make the fireflies dance,
silver moon's sparkling.
So kiss me.

Kiss me down by the broken tree house.
Swing me upon its hanging tire.
Bring, bring, bring your flowered hat.
We'll take the trail marked
on your father's map.

Oh kiss me beneath the milky twilight.
Lead me out on the moonlit floor.
Lift your open hand.
Strike up the band and make the fireflies dance -
silver moon's sparkling.
So kiss me.

So, this weekend was pretty sweet... homecoming wasn't all that great b/c I'm not a dancer... but the slow dance was fun...and the pictures were fun...and the kissing was fun... OH! just kidding... *giggles like a little girl* Um, yeah...it was fun. Everything. Dinner, Kerri spending the night, spending lots of timewith Justin... all of it. No need to go into detail on here b/c no one needs to know the details... but it was good. I'm very excited about my life right now.

So anyhow... tomorrow I'm going out to lunch with Katie B which is good because I havent' really talked with her or hung out with her in a long time... I'm actually pretty excited about it! :) And on wednesday, Audrey is finding time for me after school which is also good...we haven't hung out since before school started. ANd what else...Graceand I are hanging out on thursday after schooll..... I've pretty much got a busy yet HAPPY week. I'm thrilled. And I'm going to all of my classes too... Audrey said I had to all week or else we couldn't hang out. Hmm.. blackmail....

But that's okay. Going to 6 out of your 18 classes in a week isn't really good......

So this is my life right now. April was at homecoming and that was prettty sweet, even though we didn't talk... andso was like, half of our youth group,lol.... that was cool.

So anywho, yay. And I'm going now. :)

I keep having these disturbing dreams:
My final days, the end of me.
For some odd reason, I get one last wish,
And every time, I wish for this:

Take me fast or take me slow.
I don't really care how I go.
In the daylight or in the dark,
Just don't let me die of a broken heart.

The kind of pain that you just can't take,
Will send a strong man to his grave.
There's not a pill that can give you a rest,
Or fill that hole deep in your chest.

So, take me fast or take me slow.
I don't really care how I go.
In the daylight or in the dark,
Just don't let me die of a broken heart.

I've been crushed by that hurt before.
There's no way I could take any more.
If I fell in love, and I found out it would happen again,
I'd say take me now.

And take me fast or take me slow.
I don't really care how I go.
In the daylight or in the dark,
Just don't let me die of a broken heart.
Take me fast or take me slow.
I don't really care how I go.
In the daylight or in the dark,
Just don't let me die of a broken heart.
No, don't let me die of a broken heart.

So I definitley just added a whole LOT of icons to my photobucket.. I love them... you can check them out if you want. Or take them... whatver! :)

http://s51.photobucket.com/albums/f369/ash-mac/Icons/

today is only thursday. I want it to be friday so the weekend can start and I can have some fun!!!!

Sweet.

Nothing in my life is happening.

:) Later

HELLLLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!

Homecoming is in 3 days... very exciting. That's all I have to say.

:)

Yay.

Oh, and ASHLEY MAIER!!! Where the HELL are you woman!!????

Homecoming week.... pretty much don't care.

rally was fun. Not the best I've been to and not really that god at all, but Panic Squad was HILARIOUS, and I had some good talks with Stephanie Munden and Kaite... Katie adopted me as her little sister! :) hee hee. yay. We had a really good tlak about the last couple years and why/how our friendship kinda went down the drain. But it's better now. I love that girl. And stephanie munden makes me happy too.... I totally broke dwn saturday night like I haven't done in YEARS, and she just held me and cried with me and prayed and made me all happy. I dont' know how I feel quite yet about the whole praying thing, but the fact that she was there for me and made me feel better means sooo much to me!! I love her TONS. And she sang to me at bedtime. :)

Yay for happy times.

I have to go to choir now. Hmph. Oh well. I'll be at the library later for my daily lunch thing, lol. later.

I pretty much had an AWFUL day yesterday.... and things aren't getting that better. Read my myspace for more info. It'll explain.

www.myspace.com/ashmacattack

Ugh.

I got my dress. It's black adn frilly arounf the neck, but not too much, and it's SUPER cute!! Oh my gosh, I love it. So yeah, that's my life.

We need to figure out where we're going to dinner and if we can do a triple dat ekinda thing becasu eI really want Kerri, Scott, Elizabeth adn Sarah to come!!! It would be fuuuuuuuuunNN!!!!!

And Kerri, I'm totally excited that you're staying at my house! We're gonna part yall night long!! lol... so you comin to church with me that sunday? ha ha ha for you! :)

Love you babe! Well, and everyone else of course!

I'm trying on homecoming dresses today and I'm SUPER excited!!! I hop eI find one that fits because that would be GOOODDD!!! And I still need to find an ASB card. Scratch that, BUY and ASB card. Ugh. Damn thing for two dances and a football game. Hmm.

Well anyways, I Audrey was back yesterday, but I don't know if I'll get to see her again bafore she leaves for Alaska... it's still 6 weeks away, but she's so busy with everything..... sad. I kinda wish we could just say our goodbyes now so I don't feel like I'm being tortured. :(

It's sad. Yes.

So last night I was looking at these BEAUTIFUL flowers someone left on my front porch, adn they weren't really open yet, but this morning I woke up and they were the first thing I saw because they were completely open and just LOVELY! I was pretty darn excited about it.

So AShley, I'm sorry I didn't go to CTK with you last night.... I hope it was good though. Greg and Merriann were over and we had a BBQ, so I couldn't go.... but I hop eyou ahd fun anyways!! Maybe another weekend, KKKKK!????

Yeah, okay.

So I think I'm done writing for today.... i need to go soon and catch the bus anyways. Well, not really catch the bus, but... you know....

P.S. Kerri, you can spend homecoming night at my house and we're gonna hev lots of fun and you can even sleep in my bed!!! Ha ha ha- you know you wanna!!! hee hee.

P.P.S............ (asking Justin, mostly) Could we do a double/triple homecoming date for dinner????

You guys hsould totally be friends with "sarstress"................ cuz it's SARAH MONTOYA and we all loooove her!!!!!!!!!

:) Yes. I made her make on of these the other day. It was quite exciting. 

:)

I love that woman.

I know I keep talking abou this (not necessarily on here), but I can't get it! A wedding is supossed to be something really special and well planned and pretty and everything! Unless of course you don't care about a wedding, but how could you not?? I dunno. It just doesn't seem right to do in the next 6 weeks. I think Audrey and Mike look good together, but seriously, I think it's a mistake. They need to just take some time. I REALLY do not want her to get hurt again. REALLY. 

Ugh.

Frick.

Besides that, everything was good today. I went to see AShley at work, and tonight I get to babysit the Oman's. I think I'm gonna go home and take a very looooong nap first though. I am tired and hungry!!!

Be back monday.

Someones.

getting.

married.

They got engaged last night.

Oh my freaking gosh.

I hate people.

Like Ben Clark.

He's stupid and I was having a perfectly fine day until 5th period, ceramics and every day when I see him I realize the same thing over and over again;

He's an asshole who only cares about his dick, can't get a nice girl and thinks that everyone in the world just loves him, but really- they don't. He's an ass and i'm so sick of his negativity every day towards everyone. He's an ass to people he doesn't even know, people he just sees... he's so dumb and often I just feel like walking up to him and YELLING at him. I've imagined it so many times- "Ben, you need to straighten up and quit being such an asshole. One of these days you're gonna FUCK with the wrong person and they're gonna turn around and fucking shoot you! You seriously need to back off of everyone and try being nice for a change because NO ONE likes you and no one WILL like you as long as you keep acting like a total shit face."

I have a whole friggin speech planned out, more so than this, but I just never get the guts to say it. I will one of these days though. He's getting closer and closer to my last nerve. I try to think of him "nicely " and all that crap to forget about what an asshole he is, but it doesn't work. I hate him. Seriously. I don't hate many people, but him- I do.

Dammit.

Okay, I think I've vented enough. I can go back to class now and listen to his stupid ass remarks.

Much love <3
Ashley